Recovery Period

It been a hard period for me and I just kept myself busy. I was wander why I was doing this all the time with no reason and automatically.Since i previous posed! I am so frustrated on my life with what was happening around me. I trying my best to dealing with it but in a bad way. I am just making myself to be more tried. That was happened to me recently. Tried with no reason


"Tried for no reason" For my own definition stress about life with no solution to dealing with it. So, weird? But kind of real to my life. Just what was happened recently to me that i dealing with a bad way. Anyway, it been the 3week for my recovery period! My scar was recovering slowly but was what was the best way???

Besides that, it this life call life? I got no idea and i cant concentrate on anything and dunno what to do by now. I hope that will be a best solution for me but i always believe :-

The Only Excetpion

Since from my previous blog, I been a hard time for me after that pose. Yet, I was trying so hard to overdue with myself now.Recently, most of my friends facing self-confident problem and love including me. Anyway, that had no real answer or solution how shall we face it and it depend on how u managed it.
Besides that, I had listening to a song recently non-stop. The song was The only Exception-Paramore. I had in love with the lyrics because it had brought a meaningful meaning to me.

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it
And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face
And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

Ohh---
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, And I'm on my way to believin

Why the lyrics had brought a meaningful meaning to me??
Because totally related to what I am thinking, saw, passed, and everything from the lyrics had mention. Do you believe it???
At the same time, until today I was not believe that love never last and i do on my way to believing it. Therefore, to all my friends who are facing love problem. I hope this song had make u felt much better and forgive everything for your partner and given yourselves another chance again because your partner are always the exception. That always what i believe on it.

The Hardness Of Everytihng

What was the thing can be break easy? Glass, mud, ice, and more. That was so many thing can be break easy.Why it can be break so easily?? Thus, i think everyone know the answer why it break easily.

What was a thing that can`t be break too easily?? The answer was steel, magnet, plastic, and other. Most of them was not been be available to breakdown easily.

What was the thing was difficult to breakdown? Water, gas, and so on.. That was so much of material, type, and different reason to explain the hardness of it.

Yet the answer can be huge as a universe to answer it by using the term of physic or chemistry or other to be related on it. At the same time, how about patient, confident, sad, or love and trust or more. Do characteristic breakdown easily? Yet it had no real answer.

Therefore, why when talking about human characteristic that always had no real answer. Why god created science and that was a answer and not to human. Shall we find out the answer? I do go idea on it

To me patient, confident, love, trust, or other are available to breakdown more easily, or more difficult too. It all depend on who are you and what do you really want. As a example, a CEO had to make a decision whether the company should invest on the another company to built up more business on the future. The CEO had a confident level to decide on it. But while if the company lose all the money and he may lose his confident. At the another side, he do may learn a punishment and improve himself. Therefore, it do breakdown the confident and it do built up in the confident. It all depend on how do u manage on it.



How about trust or love? It is going to be the same as confident, patient and others. Or i had confusing about their different? Trust was define as reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing. Did trust can be breakdown easily?It was the same as the confident of the CEO. It may trust his abilities and he may not trust his abilities anymore.
Therefore, trust do break easily and hardly.

Anyway, that had no real answer to identified and explanation on a no real answer stuff. It still going to be the same as how you manage on it. Just follow your heart and dun even think whether would it be regret. Because you will feel and understand than knowing it. Yet, time was non stop going ahead. Thus, no matter what we had to go ahead like time.

Rain Cat & Dog

The idioms, rain cat and dogs was define as rain heavy. After graduated from college, I am back to my hometown, Johor Bahru. It going to be long break for me before i start my university. Therefore, I had decided to spend a holiday over my hometown. I missed my family member so much especially my little brother. I`m back with a heart that to relax myself and spend as much time with my family before i decide to continues my study or working.

The weather over here was great in the beginning of my break. it matched my feeling-happy, open-minder, kind heart back to JB. After a few days, the weather suddenly changed so badly. It can be a sunny day in the morning and it do became damn hot in the afternoon and in a second the weather turn rain cat and dogs. At the same time, it do matched my feeling- sad, angry, crying, and emo-ing. It just happened in a sudden who can`t stop it.


Different people dealing with mental problem differently. Some of them seek for a counselor help, some seek for doctor, some seek for best friends, and some seek for own soul to help defense it. Mentally break down was the most difficult to cruel because it had no real solution or medication . Therefore, all dealing with it in the best way they could.

I got no idea what was happening to my emotional break down. I can`t control it sometime. Thus, I am trying so hard not to allow the emotional to control me. Life changing all the time, like what i mention in the previous pose. I had trying so hard to improve the way I am. Sometime, u were kept reminding yourself not to repeat the false, and it make u tried on it. Thus, it do sometime just happened naturally that u dun even knew it. This was life!! It always make people into a trouble stage. Is this called a fault or wrong?? or a stupid people???
From my friends, she told me that if a person had taking the opportunity to improve themselves than doing nothing are more than enough. I am totally agreed to her opinion. At the same time, another site of me was thinking if you had decided to change. Thus, u should not done it again. That really make me crazy and sad of defensing myself. So, what should we do?? It was not fault, wrong, or even a problem. Furthermore, it just happened to my leadership life, relationship life, working life, and other. It was making me to decide to give up everything instead of holding the stress. The more u wanted to be, the more responsible u had to hold. Thus, it just like having a tattoo in your face.


Thus, no matter how much sadness, disappointment, anger, and other, you had passed trough. That was just a part of the life story to make you stronger. The God was preparing us for the future. Therefore,we should not give up and be happy.
Just be "who are you are" and "what you are". The most important we must know what our life should be and ignore anything who give u a tattoo in your face. The life will be much happier and comfortable.

Not a Human & Not a Animal

Not a human and not a animal

It sound so weird to read at the sentence.What it the sentence trying to tell. Anyway, everyone got they own story and everyone got they own way to representing him/herself. That they way I represent my self as "Not a Human & Not a Animal" How much do u understand about the sentence and how deep do u understand?? Let me make it clear before I further up my story

Not A Human
Before I really explain about it!! It going to be weird that what i`m trying to tell. While u read u may say im crazy, impossible, not such thing or u dun believe at all. I am a person who can read future and talk to spirit. Do u believe it?? Honestly speaking, I do admired i dun believed that should power was survive in this world! Although, I dun believe to the power that I had but I believed to God. It always taking care of me, not just me but everyone. Thus, that not just what I`m trying to say that I a person who can speak to spirit. But I`m a person who are not stopping myself from learning and sharing! When I was interested to the issues, life, topic, thing or other. I am not stopping myself to learn and chance myself. But that will drive me crazy when I can`t accept or I expected to high. It this call life?? It is learning will make a person to become a perfect person!! That had no real answer. Because different stage of people had different opinion and different stage of categorizes had different point of view. Therefore, I conclude it, I am not a human because we are kept learning from different stage, life, age, interested, and others to chance ourselves.
Not a Animal
I think most the people will understand by this sentence!! Let me guess!! Because the my name was PeterDuck. It was a human name added with a animal. That why was not a animal. If what I guess was right! Yet, you had guess wrongly. That not what I wan to present! Do u know what was call evolution? From the science research, Human was evolution of a monkey! Do u believe it? Monkey cell was approximate 70% as same as human cell! But are we really sure that human evolute by monkey and why not monkey evolute by human! That no real answer by today.
Besides, animal especially like dog was a loyalty, friendly, caring animal. Just like human do, but some people are not too. Therefore, different animal had different feeling, cell, characteristic. It just like who I am as well. Different days had different feeling, different age had different cell as well characteristic. Yet, I concluded I am not a animal as well

This blog will be where mine started point to be started again. Again- It was because I had a previous blog and I had deleted all the pose and that no point of remaining it.(For those old followers sorry for that and hope u enjoy my new story) Therefore, that will be a news fresh blog or story about me. Life was up and down!!! Happy and unhappy!! Remembered the pass and forgotten the pass. Different age and stage will built up different level of maturities. I will be trying to updated all the time and let share and learn from each other. Thank for those who following my blog. Before I end and started my story one pose by one pose. Please pray for me not becoming picture above! Love from Duckie ^^